It's been a while...

...but I'm going to skip right to last Thursday! :D (I'll catch you up on the last two months soon...hopefully! :D)

So, Thursday morning I was blow drying my hair, praying and thinking through all the happenings of Wednesday night's youth group, and asking Him where we are headed in the next few weeks. As I began to think through everything, I kept going back to some of the conversations I've had with the kids in the last several months, and the things God has shown me about the kids in our times together...

As I began thinking through things, I started asking Him how to explain why He allows bad things to happen to us as we go through life, and why He gave any of us free will to begin with...

In a moment, it all came pouring into my heart! And I have been SOOOOO excited ever since then! :D He's gooooooooooooooooooooooooood! :D

For a moment, I am going to need you all to have a bit of an imagination :)

Let's say, that I have made the decision that I am ready to get married. So, imagine with me, that I have the ability to CREATE my perfect husband. So, I get all my materials together, and began to put him together. So, I build him to be exactly how I want him. Then I every thought in his head that I ever want him to have. I fill his heart with every feeling I ever want him to feel. And then I breathe life into him, and we begin our life together.

He brings me flowers exactly when I feel that I need them. He says just the right thing at just the right time. He hugs me wheN I need a hug, kisses me when I need a kiss, just holds me and sits in silence with me when I need that. He is absolutely perfect... And I should be COMPLETELY fulfilled... But am I?

Absolutely NOT! :P

What fun would it be to be in a relationship where the only reason someone is with me is because I made them? It wouldn't be fun at all. Well...maybe for the first few weeks it would be fun... :)

So, as soon as that hit my heart, I finally got it! I understood why God gave us free will! :D What enjoyment would He get from relationships with us, if we only loved Him because He made us love Him? Made us talk to Him? Made us spend time with Him? There would be no enjoyment, and there would be no fulfillment.

If we didn't get to choose whether we wanted to be with Him, and invite Him to be a part of our lives, then He would not have the satisfaction that comes from us making the conscious choice to love Him because we WANT to!

Relationships are made stronger after hitting the rough patches, and coming out closer together and better than ever on the other side! :)

So, forget me creating my husband! I cannot wait for the day I get to unite with the perfectly, imperfect man that God chose for me, even before the world was created and Adam was crafted from the dust of the earth! :D Yay! :D