So, this "25 Random Things" note has been going all over Facebook. Heather tagged me to it, and I finally did it! :) It was posted a week or so on Facebook. But once again, trying to get everything all in one place! :)
1. I used to analyze everything to the point where I would drive myself crazy - I'm getting better :)
2. This past week has been the most amazing week I have had in as long as I can remember...it has just been awesome! :)
3. I have always wanted an older brother. The kind that are in movies and on television - the ones that are completely protective. That are always willing to listen. That are a shoulder to cry on when you've had your heart broken or your back stabbed.
4. I sometimes think it would have been easier if I had just never known my daddy. At least that way I would have just had the one disappointment of having a father that didn't care enough to be a part of my life, instead of the daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly disappointments...
5. I regret nothing that has happened in my life to this point. I am a firm believer in the thought that I wouldn't be the person I am right now without everything that's happened - good, bad and horrid - so, while it might have been nicer circumstances had some things been avoided...I wouldn't trade the life I've had for anything!
6. Though I would love to have a little girl one day that I can dress up and have "girl moments" with, my heart's desire is to be able to mommy two boys.
7. I know that I have a lot of quirks...but I believe with all my heart that God has someone for me that is going to completely embrace my quirks and love me all the more for them.
8. My favorite flower is the Gerbera daisy - but I HATED the ones that we (the girls) were given at our graduation. Our school colors were blue and orange, and the flowers were a icky orangish color and that were wilting before we even got them. I loved the ones my family had for me at my family graduation party - they were perky and a beautiful shade of pink! :)
9. I wish with all my heart that Heather and I had a "background" - if I think about it for too long, my heart begins to hurt when I think about the fact that I have a sister that strangers know better than I do...
10. I cannot wait to be an aunt! I pray that God will give me a husband that has several brothers and sisters, because I would love to have all kinds of nieces and nephews to spoil! :)
11. I am entirely too emotional - but I think I'm getting better...to a certain degree :)
12. Davis and Samantha hold a huge chunk of my heart. I often make the comment that I'm not sure how I will be able to love my own children any more than I love these two. I love the cuddles, the hugs, the kisses, the giggles, the stories, the conversations, the smiles...
13. I have already given Mama strict instructions as to things to tell any potential suitor to avoid when proposing. :) (I'm pretty set against the things that I am completely against for that moment...yes...I am entirely too picky...so God will change my heart toward that, or he will bring me a man that will feel the same way I do about the entire proposal :) ...I'm thinking the latter...)
14. Some nights, I lie in bed and pretend I'm back in Georgia. That I'm just across the house from Mama. That I'm just up the road from my family. I pretend like I am going to get up in the morning, and be able to walk straight through the living room and into Mama's bedroom to talk to her and tell her all about the day before.
15. It was harder leaving Georgia after visiting at Christmas than it was when I left in June to move here. I still haven't figured that one out... My lowest moment was when I walked into the house, the Sunday before I left on Monday, after I had been at church that morning crying through the entire service (Mama had stayed home because she was sick and coughing her head off), I walked through the door, into the living room and Mama was sitting on the couch. I completely lost it then. My heart was broken and nothing in this world could even come close to fixing it but my mama's arms wrapped around me, and her tears merging with mine.
16. Writing is cathartic for me. And surprisingly, I am much more open and honest with my writing when I am writing it publicly than if I am just writing it in a journal for myself.
17. Off and on I have thoughts of what it would be like to write for more than just myself. Imagining how wonderfully free I would feel being able to dedicate myself to a life of cleansing work... :) But then I realize that I really have no really imaginative or original thoughts, and that I just ramble a lot :)...so it isn't like I would be able to write things that people are just going to take to heart, laugh at, cry at or be blessed by. And I come back down to earth :)
18. I used to wonder when my "real" life was going to start...sometime in the last seven months, I realized that it started a long time ago, and it just took me realizing that to understand that it is time for me to start living every day to the max. It is imperative to appreciate every moment.
19. I have always wanted to go to Italy. Everything that I have ever seen, read, or heard about it just speaks to my soul! I am dying to see it with my own eyes! :) And I will get there one day! Even if God just flies me by on my way up to Heaven! :)
20. I put off doing this for over a week after Heather tagged me, because I knew it was going to turn into a very long, drawn out, soul-emptying session...and sure enough, I was correct :)
21. I have 15 photos in my room, and all of them are of my family.
13 of them are in black and white.
The two that are in color are for effect.
Black and white pictures are my absolute favorite.
I have three pictures on my walls.
One is in color and says: "Live life passionately, Laugh until your belly huts, Love unconditionally."
The other two are of trees - one is black and white and the other is in sepia tones.
Both pictures speak to something deep in my heart. Staring at them and "going into" them is how God speaks to the deep places many times.
22. This summer after moving here God and I had it out because I wanted to "get pictures" like everybody else at Antioch did, and He wasn't giving me any. Then I finally got one, and I was more excited than I've ever been over any physical gift I've been given! :) And now He uses pictures frequently to speak to me, and to allow me to speak into others.
23. God has been given me words for people here lately, and I still question what I'm hearing sometimes...but there is something special that happens when you obey, walk up to someone and give them the words and/or picture that God has given you for them. There is a radiant smile that breaks out on their face - a smile that comes from deep within. :) The smile is God's way of showing me that I wasn't hearing things incorrectly, that it was just what they needed to hear, and helping me gain boldness in getting quicker to obey so He can use me to bless more people, more frequently. :)
24. I absolutely love getting random texts from my friends! :) It makes my day! Cause it makes me feel like they were just sitting, going about their day, and then all of a sudden thought about me and took the time to send me a message :) It makes me feel completely loved and special :)
25. Sometimes I feel completely uneducated - especially in the moments when I let myself slip, and I sound like someone off the Beverly Hillbillies. But then God reminds me that He loves me no matter what. And He doesn't mind that I have a country twang, and that it gets even worse when I'm tired or am really emotional. And that He doesn't care that I can't have long philosophical or scientific conversations, cause He didn't make me for that. He made me to be personable and relational. And even though I didn't really used to like people that weren't in my immediate circle, He has definitely been working on that, and broadening my horizons.
26. I hate talking on the phone. Absolutely loathe it. I would rather spend two hours having a conversation via text message than have a 5 minute phone conversation. I think part of it is that I sometimes have an extremely hard time hearing and understanding people over the phone, and I get frustrated with myself. However, if you catch me at the right time, I can talk for hours - just ask Mama :)
27. I have taken a Folic Acid pill almost every day since 10th grade. I found out in my Early Childhood class about how one of the main reasons children are born with Spina Bifida is because of a lack of Folic Acid in the mother. Our teacher told us that when we got ready to start thinking about getting pregnant that we should start taking Folic Acid pills to aid in the process. So I just got a jump start on it and started then. However, if any of my children are born with Spina Bifida, I am going to have blown the Folic Acid myth out the window! :P
28. I love getting mail - snail mail. One of the best feelings is to open up the mailbox and have a package or letter in there with my name on it :) I used to really enjoy it when I lived in Georgia, but now that I'm out here, I really and truly love it.
29. After being able to see the purity and the entire presence of God in Brandy and John's and Amanda and Ed's relationships, I have determined that I am completely willing to wait for whomever God wants to send my way. To be able to glow radiantly like Brandy is after marrying her God-given prince, and to be able to "light up like a Christmas tree" as I have seen Amanda do every time Ed walks into her line of vision...it's worth the wait. Totally and completely.
30. And on that note, after seeing each of those couples together, and after having long talks with each of the women about their feelings toward their relationships, I have decided that if I don't get married until I'm 80, it's fine, as long as he is the one God has for me. I don't want to rush anything. The way these men look at them like they are the most precious thing in the world; the way they lead the relationships in the way God intended, and the way these Godly women fall into their roles so happily and beautifully! :) It just puts everything into perspective. :)
*I'm sorry this is so long. And if you stuck it out and read this entire thing, you deserve a medal! :)
**I am aware that I did a few more than 25...what can I say, I got in the groove, and just went with it :)
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